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Wednesday, May 17, 2017

One of my babies with her baby!

Future...

I interviewed for a transfer within a company that I just started working for again. I met with the director today. Health Insurance, 401-K, free childcare for my 3 youngest children. I really can't ask for more. I like where Etta and Elaina go now but it is just not convenient. I can't wait to hear back with more details. A 401-K!!!!


Interview outfit


Work uniform

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

6 weeks old today



Bennie's appointment

We are trying to get to the bottom of Ben's needs. He went to the psychologist today for just his intake appointment. You have to start somewhere. The psychologist graduated last year. She seems nice with her Harry Potter and Dr. Who stickers on her laptop. We shall see where this journey leads. He was thrilled that he got to watch SpongeBob while waiting. We don't have internet or cable at home so tjst was a treat.



Sunday, May 14, 2017

A new bead order...

A Blessingway Bead order....


Mother's Day

Well, I made Connor go to church today. He was very polite and asked that I never do that again....

I received flowers, Etta is carrying them in for me, and a mug from the church. That was very sweet of them. They honored mothers in a very touching sermon. Evan picked out a chocolate hazelnut tea for me to try in my new mug.



Saturday, May 13, 2017

My portrait



I am so proud thst Ben tried his best. But his school says he does not need help from the OT and he missed getting an IEP by one point on one test. I am trying to restart his private OT. This is a prime example of cognitive and fine motor delays... He was asked to draw a picture of me. In comparison to his classmates his picture is very different.

We are looking at a small private school for him if we can afford it.


Friday, May 12, 2017

Faces of depression

Not everyone knows what Dysthymia is or what double depression is. Few know what serotonin syndrome is either. Well, I do. Dysthymia is lifelong depression. Serotonin syndrome means you are basically, for lack of a better meaning, allergic to most anti-depressants. Life is very hard for me sometimes. Ok, all the time. I have learned to take it in public and in the work place for the most part of I keep my distance. My husband and mother try to understand and put up with a lot. More than I ever would from someone that is for sure. Today I chose to start medication that my body may tolerate. I don't want to. I have fought the idea of it for years. I feel like a failure and broken. This medicarion may change who I am. What if I get lost?


From Etta and Elaina


Sunday, May 7, 2017

Eli's first bath...

He wasn't very happy about it but he is officially clean with a real hair washing. Then his hair got a good brushing.




Saturday, May 6, 2017

Spit up king....

Elias is such a spitter. I am pumping mainly. He will nurse sometimes but I am just more comfortable pumping this go around. Eli is getting some formula too. He throws up no matter what. I have always sort of made fun of parents for buying expensive gimmick bottles. Well, I broke down and got the new Dr. Brown bottles that fit on breast pumps. Guess what? They seem to be working. Eli has kept more milk down since I got them....