Saturday, January 24, 2015


My mother took an old dress of mine that I never wore but liked the feel of the fabric and turned it into 2 pillows. Everyone  fought over them and Elaina  won.

Sunday, January 18, 2015


Annika is growing up

Annika's hair is getting so long. I can't believe how fast she is turning into a young woman. I am missing so much of this stage of her life. I know that is of my choosing since I allowed her to go live with her father. But I miss just brushing her hair like I did today. The little kids miss her so much. She could benefit from some more big sister time with Lyn too....

A beautiful Sunday

The weather was nice today. The kids took advantage and so did I. No shoes required. ....

Happy Birthday Ben

Five years old today!!!!

He got a cake made by Lyn that he called a big donut. It was a bunt cake. And an awesome bug book and a bear puppet from the thrift store from Granny. That is one happy 5 year old boy.

Car sick Elaina

Equals vomit in the carseat.....

I am all about trying not to use a lot of disposable products but this amount of vomit had me bringing out gloves and disposable wiprs. I mixed up some vinegar water with Citrus Fresh essential oil added to do a proper scrub down after I rinsed with bleach water.  Oh my goodness at the amount of vomit that can come out of a two year old.

Monday, January 12, 2015

Beginnings and endings

Lyn has returned to public school. Honestly she just really needed a babysitter. She was able to enter as a junior though so skipping a public school grade gives homeschooling some credit. She is just more of a passive learner. She enjoys the classroom. I hated it..... She is not me though. We shall see how it all goes. The freedom of homeschooling has taught her some harsh lessons that will stay with her her whole life. She has a car. She has to pay car insurance. She has a job. She has to now balance work with her job so she can pay for public school. Homeschooling is so much cheaper.

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Etta ' s new borrowed seat

A friend from church offered to let Etta try 5 his seat.  It is actually perfect. It keeps her hips aligned. She fits in it perfectly. It is more than a bouncy seat doesn't affect posture like a bimbo and isn't a crotch danger like and exersaucer.  She played well in it and I believe her Special Instructor with Early Intervention will be pleased with it. I am happy to have a tool to help her.

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Mother and Daughter

I so desperately want to have a connection with my eldest daughter. I have tried letting her make her own choices. I have tried being strict with her. Definitely not as strict as some parents are with their children though. It seems like nothing I do matters. I wanted to give Lyn a childhood and young adulthood that I wished I had. She doesn't want it. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side. She wanted to move out and lie with older friends who were bad influences and I had to put my foot down. She has two jobs and a car. She was all ready to graduate in a few months and move on to college or the military. Well, now she needs a babysitter. I shall enroll her into public school and tough for her if she falls prey to the bad influences there. I tried to be a present parent and one that allowed freedom. Now, I shall be for her what I guess what she needs not what I think she needs. I will let her be like every other teenager not like my unique eldest daughter. I am letting go. Maybe she will emotionally come back to me. Maybe our relationship will be surface deep and simple. Maybe we will connect again when she is older or maybe never. Maybe the connection was only in my head. No matter what she is mine and I am hers. Time will go on.....

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Herbal fire starters

Today was a very stressful day. I needed to reconnect. We had some kindling, tender, and firewood handy. The weather had cooled down and I had some dried herbs that I wanted to burn. I separated them out and tied them up with fast starting pine straw. They all burned lovely. I had white sage, rosemary, lavender, juniper, cedar, and a little wormwood to burn in my cauldron. The heat and the light brought some closure to my day.