Friday, March 27, 2015

My new favorite carrier oil

This carrier oil is a new favorite of mine especially for therapeutic essential oils that I use for physical health reasons. I use Young Living ' s AromaLife blend to help with my genetic high cholesterol. I like to support Young Living when I can but Edens Garden has some products that YL doesn't carry. I am pleased with their quality. Meadowfoam is mild and seems to carry an energy of its own. It acts as an amplifier for me. Not so much in a physical medical type way but in a more spiritual way.

Elaina playing in my class

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Annika my lost daughter

I have had several conversations with my daughter Annika in the past few months that have distanced us. I have tried to cultivate some type of relationship with her but she is just lost. Her father who wanted his children to not have a mother (so he told me years ago) has won. My eldest sons and my 2nd daughter are lost. I have nightmares all the time about Annika's traumatic birth. That saying that is said "as least you have a healthy baby" does not hold true. First, she is brain damaged and has several diagnoses and second I don't even have a 12 year old daughter anymore. I want to leave Danny, Connor, and Annika's pictures up on my sidebar because they are a part of MY motherhood but they are not mine anymore......

My heart has holes in it that will not be filled.

I have her tree planted in the yard, her weeping willow, that I will treasure but I think I need to take down the rest of the things I have of hers up in the house. I took them down once and then put them back up. I believe it is time once again to take them down. I may give them to my mother or maybe her 16 year old sister. I just can't bear the weight.

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Etta is 16 months old today....

While Etta was visiting her Granny she decided to pull up. My mother did not see it happen but she snapped a picture. We haven't seen a repeat performance yet but I am looking forward to some new tricks from this little girl.

My class....

Working in a childcare setting that use the typical cookie cutter system is challenging sometimes. I try to bring nature into my class. I try to offer the children opportunities to hear music they may never hear and to listen to stories that may be hidden from them. I try to just be who and what I am. I am a teacher who tries to provide knowledge  and then let children decide how to use it.

Monday, March 23, 2015

Whirligigs in the Small Small Pond

The kids in my class had so much fun swirling the toy beetle around in the blue and green paint. This has to be one of my favorite books.

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Happy Spring

We had a nice welcoming ritual tonight. I called the 3 children on the phone who weren't thete. Annika was happy to have a candle lit for her. The older boys didn't really care. Lyn was such a big sister helping the little kids light their pink Spring candles. We chose pink this year to symbolize friendship and the blossoms we see blooming all around us outside. Eliot shared some purple flowers from her redid tree in the front yard. I placed them in my yoni mortar and pestle. The herbs I chose for the table for purification and home blessing are angelica, chamomile, burdock, and anise....

It was a lovely ceremony. My Spring Mother came down from her shelf to join us. All elements were represented...

Friday, March 20, 2015

Getting ready for Spring

My meditation stone eggs in their wooden bowl look like they are sitting in a nest.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

I have had a affinity for amber for years now. I wear an amber teething type necklace myself plus a deep red amber bracelet you see in the photo pretty much all the time. As such an Earth spirit I feel amber pieces are pearls of the Earth. They just feel right to me. I have tried amber incense and halfway enjoyed it but this oil I ordered on sale with some new herbs has made my evening. It is just wonderful. The amber bracelet wrapped around my Mother figure is actually Etta ' s but she has only worn it once. I am still coasting from this scent.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Elaina at preschool

One of the best things about working in childcare and having children is the fact that you can at times have your children close. I wish I could be a stay at home mother especially since I have adopted attachment parenting but being the sole financial provider of my family has its downfalls. I am not Elaina's teacher but she is near me. Her class is next door. She has a nurturing teacher and I get to see her on the playground when the toddler classes combine. This is her first opportunity to attend preschool full time. So far overall she is enjoying it even when she has her stubborn moments.

Saturday, March 14, 2015

A friend in need.....

I have a friend who is in financial need. She is an artist with an Etsy shop. She is a mom of 5 children. Her husband is looking for work. I have ordered from her shop several times. I particularly enjoy Goddess dolls. I have ordered some for church auctions, for meditation purposes, for my daughters, and even "won" one when I sponsored her last homebirth (they had to pay out of pocket for it). She is a painter also. Take a look at her shop and if you feel called to order something from her it will support her in supporting her family. She is a strong beautiful spirit and I am privileged to have her handmade objects gracing my home.

Here is a link to her Etsy shop...